Vulnerability

To write well, I think vulnerability is required, at least if one wants to write effectively, to make an impact, to really say something significant. Like the previous post--probably it would have been enormously better and fantastically clearer had I embraced vulnerability and shared my situation. But I didn't want to. Because right now, I'm just not willing to be vulnerable. I don't want to share my life right now. Honestly, my heart has been broken, and I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep until the pain goes away completely and I can carry on with life as before...but I cannot do that. I am well aware of that fact. So I will keep going, with pain in my heart, knowing that healing takes time, that it is a process and that I am currently walking out that process. Some days are better than others. Some days are just hard. But I press on. I have to.  And to do so, I consider Him, who for the joy that was set before Him (me and you), endured the cross, scorned its shame, and sat down at the right hand of God. I fix my eyes on the Author and the Perfecter of my faith, and like Paul I say I will forget what is behind, and I will strain toward what is ahead to win the prize--Jesus Christ. This is, after all, just a momentary light affliction working in me to eternal weight of glory. And I know, on the Day I see His face, it's going to be worth it all. He is going to be worth it all. Is that vulnerable enough? Doubtful, but that's all you're gonna get.